where the spirit of the Lord is, there is...

It is first day of the month yet I fired it up with a nasty attitude. I felt sorry for my hubby because I was so mean to him this morning. Well actually, the early hours of the day started great. We both woke up with good smiles on our faces, welcoming God's blessings & accepting His mercy for us. With a good aura, I got up from bed, went to the bathroom, mouth-washed, went downstairs, let the dog out, let the dog in, gave him biscuits and just shifted my ass up in gear. However, when I began cleaning, my face suddenly started frowning. My mood just swung around that triggered me to complain even the littlest things that I could think of. I complained about the brooms here which are hard and it hurts my hands when I am sweeping. I nitpicked Rudy's (our dog) hair scattered all around the house and I always was the one cleaning it up. I nagged my hubby and told him silly stuffs like maybe he just married me so he will have someone whom he can boss around to do the household chores. I sounded like a gong making a very dreadful sound. If only I could hear my own voice while uttering these bad words, I would really just stop and be gentle instead, but, since I was mad, I tended to just say my litany of complaints in a rapid succession. Gosh, it was so bad and shameful of me. Good enough that my husband did not entertain my irrationality and nastiness. He just said that if I don't want to clean then "stop cleaning!" He also said that what he wanted to point out was that there are only two people plus one dog living in the house yet it looks messier than a house which is dwelt by a big family. He just thought that he is working full-time so he's passing the house cleaning on my hands since I have much spare time to carry it out. He emphasized too that in fact, he was helping me do the dishes lately because he sensed that I didn't like doing it as well so what the heck I was complaining about when in fact he's always there to help me out. So, after he's done giving away his response, he said so long to me and then left for work. O boy, I got stuck with all the facts that he enumerated. He was surely right. I felt kinda ashamed and guilty of what I'd said and done. I should have not put the blame on him if the house was dirty because houses can really get dirty even if you clean it up everyday. I know, I should not feel loaded nor burdened when I do the household chores. I must face it, things are different now compared with the things I used to do when I was still single living with my parents where I just bossed around my younger sisters to do the chores. I should start acting not only a mature grown-up woman but to top it, a settled and responsible wife as well. Nonetheless, at least I was able to express what I truly felt. Sometimes, bitter feelings and emotions are better spit out than just left unspoken because if you let them be piled up inside of you, they might later on stifle you that could more likely result to a huge fight or a terrible chasm in your marriage. Right? O well, good thing is, I had great realizations on this incident. It was absolutely my bad, so, when hubby came back home, I hugged him and gave him a sweet kiss to say I was sorry.

Anyhow, I felt great that everything went well between the two of us before the day ends. We will surely both have a restful & peaceful sleep. Remember, never go to bed with a heavy heart transpired from unresolved discussion. O praises and thanks be to God most importantly for His Spirit really emancipated me from evil thoughts and freed me from false convictions.

And here's for you king of evil, BACK OFF! Stay away from us, you idiot! you will never succeed, never ever!!!! grrrrrrrrrrr

Jan here saying goodnight to everyone in Christ, leaving a beautiful thought to ponder (excerpt from the praise and worship song FREEDOM)

"Where the spirit of the Lord is...
...There is freedom, there is peace, there is joy and there is love..."

Awesome God!!!